The Angel Place in CyberSpace
Poem--Guardian Angel
Journey of Hearts
A Healing Place in CyberSpace TM
Guardian Angel
The walls close in around me.  
I feel myself slipping,  
The line between reality and sanity  
blending, fading.  

I walk on the rim  
carefully balancing.  
Taunting, teasing, risking  
dangerously near falling.  

Below me a beckoning abyss.  
Calling me  
Welcoming me  
Spirits cry out,  
"Join us. Let us free your suffering."  

The battle has waged too long.  
I am done.  
Unable to fight anymore  
I give in.  

The ropes surround me  
like weights  
pull me under.  
The abyss consumes me  
enveloping, surrounding me.  

A Hand appears out of the light.  
Strong arms  
to pull me from the darkness.  
To save me from myself  
and impending sleep.  

I am brought back from the edge.  
I return to the world  
into the light and the truth.  

Released from my chains  
as a butterfly  
I fly free and strong  
to greet the new dawn.  

No longer do I fear the edge.  
It has retreated.  
I stand on solid ground.  
Not alone, but with you.  

Guardian Angel.  

This poem, "Angel," was written during one of the more disheartened phases of my residency days.  I first  shared this poem with a "Renewing Life"group, I was surprised at how many people were touched by this poem. 
An AIDS social-worker had been struggling to make sense of the suicide she had witnessed, as a young person jumped to his death outside of her window. It seemed like such a waste of life, and such a contrast to what she was dealing with daily...losing young people to AIDS. This poem helped her to understand the "rim" on which that person might have been walking, before "succumbing to the voices of the beckoning abyss." The poem was displayed at the community AIDS houses in Santa Barbara, to provide hope for the residents; additionally it was displayed in the office of one of the local AIDS physicians for his patients. Angel was read at a recent funeral of a young man with Down's Syndrome, to help his family and friends understand his struggle and the need to finally let go after many months of battling infections.  
It appeared in Peace of Hope, an inspirational and life-affirming quarterly publication for those affected by cancer and other life threatening illnesses.  
I have shared the poem with patients that I have seen with depression, or after the death of a loved one, that they might find their own Angel and way out of the darkness and depression.  
It has helped friends through the transition phase after being relocated, in a new unfamiliar environment and provides them hope to deal with the emptiness and isolation that result. 
Last updated January 30, 1998
Angel is copyrighted 1996 by Pathway Community Services and appears in Peace of Hope, Winter 1996.  All material, unless otherwise specified is copyrighted 1997-8 by Journey of Hearts A Healing Place in CyberSpace. We invite you to share the information on this site with others who may benefit, but ask that you share from the heart only and not for profit.